The Actor in me.

Do you ever wonder what is running through an actor's head, while you watch them reminisce about something of the past their character underwent? Here I am, watching "You've Got Mail" at the point where Kathleen is looking at the empty store, imagining that she was a little girl again, dancing with her mother. What was Meg Ryan thinking?
"How long do I have to keep staring at emptiness";"I wonder what I'm having for dinner tonight";"I wish I was facing the other way, this isnt my good side".
I really don't think so. I think that she was putting herself in Kathleen's shoes. Or I think that she was imagining herself as a little kid, or at a time when she was really happy.
I think that when things get rough, we all need to do that. We need to just step back, close our eyes, and just thank God for everything he has given us. We need to stop and thank our loved ones for what we put them through. I don't know how I got to this, but I'm glad I did. Because my life is a soap opera lately, and strangely, I hate the fact that I'm the star. I'd love for someone to come in and steal the spotlight. But then again, I'm happy I'm the one who's going through all this. Because I know I can handle it. I'm strong enough, and I've been through worse. And it'd be rude of me to wish this on anybody....but I do feel like I deserve a break. I'm just gonna step back, and reminisce for a little while, and then, just "flow with the go". It sounds impossible right now, because my usual self just wants to break out and take control and try to get what it wants, and it's taking alot out of me to stop it.
But I promise, it's contained, for now anyways. Oh how I wish I could eplain my feelings. So I'll end this before I make the big mistake and explain them. Thank you for listening[reading]to my rant. Pleasant dreams<3.